I'm back

[Russell]

So what did I miss?




So I'm back, properly this time I hope.

I'm excited for the FF12 remaster/re-release; I wanna talk about it whilst I'm playing it and I've been meaning to come back for a while.
But it was last Monday I preordered FF12 off Amazon and it took me until now to (for lack of a better term) psyche myself up to post this.

I collapsed at my desk at work back in November. I just felt dizzy out of no where then woke up on the floor. (I had a black eye after). Then it felt like my body was trying to fold itself in half; ever time I tried to stand up or move I vomited. After about 3 hours of crawling around the floor near my desk being sick I got carted away in an ambulance.
From November until last month I've had always had another hospital appointment to worry about. Then the next one, then the next one. Whilst they try and figure out what's wrong with me.

The results are all back and there nothing that can be done; it's just going to keep happening. They gave me some info about it and diet changes to make to help etc.

I don't want to go into now but the point it no more hospital visits!



Which brings me to my crippling mental problems.

I've always been shy, had social anxiety and I'm an

Spoiler: introvert.

But with my health I've had alot of anxiety lately. I feel nervous about alot of things and when I feel nervous I feel sick. I take travel sickness pills alot just to calm my stomach. (I've afraid to go to a doctor get anything stronger). There was a period earlier this year when I couldn't leave the house without having sickness pill 20 minutes before. I was so nervous about just going to work that I had one every morning. And the constant next hospital visit was always on the horizon. Any kind of social interaction makes me nervous, so at the beginning of this post when I said it took a week to get up the nerve to write this out I wasn't exaggerating.

It sounds stupid, but yeah; a forum post (about myself) really is hard for me to do.

I could say more but this has taken an hour of typing in notepad.


TL/DR:
Now the hospitals visits are done I'm feeling alot better about things, I'll hopefully be around more.

 

[Octo]

Glad to have you back dude. Anxiety fucking sucks.

 

[X-SOLDIER]

Dang man. Glad ta have ya back around, and we're always around ta listen.





X

 

[Carlie]

Damn man that sucks, glad to have you back and that you're better.

 

[Ami]

Welcome back!

 

[Flintlock]

Welcome back, and good on you for opening up about your mental issues. From one sufferer to another, I you.

 

[Alex Strife]

Welcome back!! I can relate, a little bit. I think. Hope you're all better now!!

 

[Tetsujin]

Welcome back

 

[Ghost X]

Good to see you back. Health issues suck, and one hopes you're getting the best advice and treatment available.

 

[Joe]

Russell man, good to see you back.

I really hope your health improves more in the near future. Not knowing what's causing it must suck so hard. We're all here if you need to vent off any frustrations.

 

[Flare]

Welcome back Russel

 

[Channy]

Not again... stop playing with my heart!!

 

[Russell]

 

[Mage]

We're doing a meet up for a weekend in August, goes without saying that you'd be welcome to join us dude. PM me if you're interested, if not then I'm glad to see you're posting back here, even if things haven't been great.