12 years ago; Raijin middle school; 1st year, class 3
"Hey you, want to join the biology club? Or rather, make one?"
"Sorry, but I'm not interested."
To the bespectacled boy's question, the other boy answered bluntly.
That was the first conversation Kishitani Shinra and Orihara Izaya ever had.
This was in the classroom after the entrance ceremony, and after everyone had introduced themselves.
After they'd been dismissed, friends from the same elementary schools spoke to each other, and in the atmosphere mixed with hope and worry about their new school lives, only these two were surrounded by a somehow strange air.
There were students from Raijin elementary, but none of them spoke to Izaya.
Izaya didn't feel particularly lonely, and even thought this should be the case.
It was true that he was an especially good student.
However, it can't be said that one is a model student just by being especially good at their studies.
He appeared gentle, and had some popularity with girls - but he went through school life in a withdrawn state, one step away from everything.
Later, an elementary schoolmate from the same level would laugh and say of him,"He was like an alien. He was a good guy, anyway." In reality, there were a lot of people who had similar impressions of him, who would say "He was a good guy, anyway" but it could have been that they thought it was expected of a top student. *
He wasn't hated by the boys and girls, but he wasn't particularly liked either.
During afternoon breaks and such, other students would talk in the classroom, or play in the courtyard, but since Izaya would always be in the library, he gave people the impression that he was a loner.
On class outings, when they split classes, he'd always be "the leftover one", but even so - when that happened, all the other classes would say,"Eh, is Izaya alone!? Come to my class!" "No, come here!" and it would be decided with rock-paper-scissors. This curious presence, was Orihara Izaya in his elementary school days.
And, Izaya himself enjoyed being a step away from his surroundings.
He knew he was a top student.
However, he didn't think the people around him were idiots, and didn't look down on them.
He liked the place for group activities that was known as school.
His classmates around him laughed with each other, fought with each other, bullied each other, and cried from the bullying - he liked to watch all this happen.
But if he were to get too far into it, he wouldn't be able to see as much.
If, in a cinema, there were two choices of seats - a seat at the back where, besides the whole of the movie, one could also appreciate the audience's reactions, and another seat right at the front where it'd be hard to see but easy to become completely absorbed in the images, the elementary school student Izaya was the type who would, with all certainty, choose the former.
As such, being singled out in such circumstances was something he actually wanted, and was enjoying watching his classmates form groups, but -
The person who interfered with his enjoyment, was a bespectacled boy with an innocent smile.
The boy, who, during self-introductions, called himself Kishitani Shinra.
"Dad got tired of Mum and divorced, and I'm now living with my dad, three people in all." He spoke in a breezy manner about his heavy family situation, and this was the impression he left behind.
Thinking about this, Izaya tried to return to observing the class, but -
"It's alright if you aren't interested. Let's make a biology club."
"......"
Izaya thought the boy with glasses, talking to him without giving up, was a little annoying.
Then, he realized he rarely thought that way of other people, so he became interested in the boy called Kishitani Shinra instead.
"You're Kishitani-kun, right?"
"Shinra's fine. ......erm, sorry, what was your name again?"
"......it's Orihara Izaya."
"Ah, right! Orihara-kun! I'll call you Orihara-kun, but you can call me Shinra."
At Shinra, who was speaking willfully in a strange direction, Izaya, amazed, replied.
"Why would you ask someone whose name you don't even know to set up a biology club?"
"Because the teacher said so just now. In this school, you can set up a club as long as you have at least two people."
"No, I mean, why me?"
It was probably because he was alone in class.
But that was something that was better not said directly.
Interested in what sort of reply he'd get, he asked the question in order to hear a forced reply, but-
What he got back, was something he didn't imagine.
"You like to watch living things, don't you? Just the type for biology."
"Ha?"
He didn't remember saying that in his self-introduction.
He thought for a moment that he'd been mistaken for someone else, but it seemed there wasn't any student who'd said something like "I like biology".
Seeing Izaya frown, Shinra asked instead.
"Huh? You said it during your self-introduction, right?"
"What?"
"Come on, it was "I like to watch people with different jobs.""
"......"
He liked to watch people.
He knew he liked to observe people, but if he were to say "my hobby is observing people" in his self-introduction, he wouldn't be thought of in a good manner, so he tried to say it in a way that seemed like a hobby yet wasn't a hobby, but he didn't think he'd there would be someone who'd say "join the biology club" to him.
"How is that related to the biology club?"
"Humans are biological!"
"......"
In the boy who simply declared "humans are biological", Izaya became interested again. It was true that "humans are one of the kinds of living things on Earth" was something he heard often those days, and there were probably other students who liked that phrase.
But, if someone were to mention that in relation to biological observation, then clearly something was wrong with him.
Slightly lost, Izaya shook his head at the boy.
"I'm sorry, but I'm really not interested in the biology club."
"I see, then I don't have a choice."
He gave up so simply that Izaya was caught off-guard.
"I'll ask you again tomorrow. It seems like there isn't a time limit for applying to form a club, anyway."
"Hold it. Don't you think I'm going to give you the same answer again?"
He stopped Shinra to ask, not just for the sake of exposing the joke.
Besides the curiosity, there was a kind of "strangeness".
He wanted to confirm what it was, but - at this point, Izaya still couldn't understand what that strangeness was.
"How about the day after?"
"Won't it be the same?"
"Please. You can be the president."
"Why are you giving me such a troublesome position?"
Izaya continued to retort calmly. It was the result of saying unimaginable things to a person one's only just met, but Izaya rarely had this sort of conversation with anyone.
"Anyway, can't you just ask someone else? Like a friend from elementary school."
At this, Shinra answered, looking surprised.
"Do I look like someone who has friends?"
"......sorry. You don't."
"Too bad! There's actually one!"
"Hmmm. Should I hit you?"
Ignoring the words Izaya said with narrowed eyes, he spoke quietly.
"Nah, but, that friend's in another school. So I don't have any friends in this school."
"You don't seem like you can make any more here. My condolences. Or should I say, serves you right?"
Izaya was a little surprised at himself saying these words.
That his stance of "not being attached nor separated from other people" that he had carried all through elementary school would be so simply destroyed, was something he hadn't expected.
He wondered if students from other elementary schools were like this, or if this boy, Kishitani Shinra was special, so he asked.
"Well, but, isn't there at least one other person who likes biology?"
"Hmmm. But there was a reason I asked you, that is, if I were to find someone who really likes biology, and wants to do things, it'd be a problem for me. I'd like to do the least work possible, something like keeping sea monkeys."
"? What. Is it not because you like biology?"
This school didn't require club activities. If they didn't have any drive, the students could simply make it a going-home-club, but why did he want to make a club at all?
The question came up in Izaya's mind, but before he could ask, the answer came from Shinra's mouth.
"No, actually, I don't really want to do club activities...... . Someone I like said "I've been thinking of this since you were in elementary school, but you have too few friends. How about doing club activities?"...... . It's still one-sided love, but I don't want to be disliked, so......"
".......over the fact that it's one-sided, I didn't think there'd be a person who'd care so much about you."
"You're speaking really frankly to someone you've just met. On top of that, there's something in "a person who'd care so much about you" that I'd like to correct, but, that's fine. Anyway, I thought you'd not particularly feel like doing anything even if you joined the club. Come on, can't we find tsuchinokos together?"
"That isn't a biology club activity, is it?"
In that manner, Izaya declined on the day of the entrance ceremony, but-
He had become interested in the strangeness of the human called Kishitani Shinra, and from the next day onwards, focused on "observing" him.
In addition, he made contact with people from Shinra's elementary school in a natural manner, and investigated him.
"Heeeh, that elementary school......isn't it the same as Kishitani-kun's?"
"Yeah, that's right. Ah, Orihara-kun, are you in the same class as Kishitani?"
"Yeah."
"Isn't he weird? I don't know what he's thinking at all."
It was an answer that he'd expected, but he continued to talk anyway.
"I don't want to say it since it sounds like I'm talking bad about him, but he doesn't seem to have many friends."
"Or rather, he doesn't have-......ah, there was Shizu-chan."
"Shizu-chan?"
A girl's name, probably. This was perhaps the "person who cares about Shinra" he was talking about yesterday. So Izaya thought.
However, that this was not the case, was something that the boy's next words told him.
"There was this scary guy called Shizuo...... . He's super good at fighting, gets mad quickly, but even though everyone tries not to go near him, only Kishitani can go near him and say things like "Let me dissect you!", you know? I don't get it."
"I see."
"Although, that scary guy did talk to Shinra properly...... . But he's really scary, you know? He threw the teacher's desk!"
-- Threw?
-- Ah, he's probably exaggerating the idea that he overturned the desk.
"I see, thanks. It'd be good if they caught such a dangerous guy soon."
Izaya thanked him lightly, and left the corridor.
He would never have dreamed that he would eventually engage in battles with that "dangerous guy" in the future.
After that, he continued living the same life he had in elementary school, while keeping an eye on the human called Kishitani Shinra, but -
One day, he suddenly understood.
Nothing told him so.
As if he had remembered something forgotten, it flashed by in his mind.
The fact that Kishitani Shinra was his opposite.
He didn't look at almost everyone else.
To bring it to the extreme, Kishitani Shinra did not have any interest in humans.
Just as he liked to watch humans -
Shinra had no interest in them.
-- If so, what is it?
-- What does he live to see?
He, who had been watching people, first noticed that "strangeness".
When he noticed it, a new question formed in his mind -
At the point, one month after the entrance ceremony, he said this to Shinra.
"About the biology club - if I can be vice-president, I'll do it, okay?"
He wanted to know why Kishitani Shinra didn't have any interest in humans.
As he hid that twisted passion in his heart -
The first biology club of Raijin middle school was born.
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12 years ago; the last day of the summer holidays; Raijin Middle School; Biology room
"So, I think betting on baseball is bad, you know?"
"You're still saying that? I'm amazed."
How long has this conversation already continued?
Izaya, feeling a little bored of it, glared at the club president.
There was a reason he became the vice-president of the biology club and bought out the responsibility for taking care of the plants for the summer.
It was for the sake of turning the biology room, which he stayed in for fixed periods of time, into a place to gamble on baseball.
Ordinary students who claimed to want to see the carnivorous plants came to the biology room; however, most of them didn't come for the plants but rather to see Izaya, who was their bookie for baseball betting.
On top of the excuse that they wanted to appreciate the plants, the teachers didn't find out, so work was proceeding well, until - on the last day of the summer holidays, that is, today, Kishitani Shinra, who happened to be the biology club president, happened to see what was going on.
Then, he went on, stubbornly trying to persuade Izaya to stop.
It can't be said that the president - Kishitani Shinra, had a sense of justice.
Izaya knew that too.
It was, if anything, for the sake of showing "the target of his one-sided love" that he was on the side of good.
Izaya, feeling some kind of irritation at this Shinra, continued to stubbornly refuse, but-
Shinra, at this Izaya, wasn't angry or sad, and only calmly continued to persuade him.
"Shinra, are you an idiot? It's just like you haven't got any freedom of thought, like a puppet who's only trying to show his family that he's good."
"If the strings are held by people I care about, I'm fine with being a puppet."
"It's useless talking to you."
Really irritated, Izaya fell silent after that exchange, but-
When the silence was broken, it wasn't by Izaya or Shinra - it was by a third person, a boy who quietly opened the door to the room.
"Izayaa......"
The boy whispered quietly. Shinra, smiling, raised his hand.
"Hey, isn't it Nakura-kun. Did you come to see the carnivorous plants?"
Ignoring his schoolmate's greeting, the boy with a mole under his eye (nakihokuro) moved closer to Izaya.
"......what's up? Betting's already closed for today, you know?"
Just from those words, it was obvious that Nakura was someone who frequently engaged in "baseball betting". Shinra's expression didn't change, but his gaze shifted between Izaya and Nakura.
"Hey......I'm begging you, lend me some money."
Nakura, with a somehow hollow gaze and quivering lips, walked towards Izaya.
"I don't lend money."
"Then, that, money that I've betted up until yesterday, return it to me...... . It's bad, like this, my dad'll find out I took money from his wallet......"
"That's your own fault, isn't it? I've never forced you to gamble even once."
At Izaya's cold smile, Nakura's lips quivered strongly for a moment, then-
He took out a knife from his pockets, holding them in his palms, which were quivering as well.
"Is that for real? Nakura-kun."
Izaya narrowed his eyes, searching, while Nakura, teeth chattering, spoke.
"Take it out, means take it out, give it, give......give it back!"
He probably didn't know what to say. In a state where he could only attempt to articulate something, he moved closer, knife in hand, towards Izaya-
"To tell the truth, I can't think of there being any point to return you the money. I know. There haven't been a lot of times you've stalked people who won money, haven't there? I get complaints, you know."
In the next moment after Izaya said this, Nakura rushed at him.
"Just...just give, give it back already......raah!"
"......what an idiot, really."
Izaya, panic rising in his eyes, reached for a chair nearby to counter the attack, but-
Between the completely panicked two, Shinra suddenly jumped in.
"Watsugubo"
He'd probably wanted to say something like "wait".
But, despite the sudden interruption, Nakura didn't stop at all.
The shock to his stomach, that produced the strange yell "watsugubo"-
As a side effect, blood spilled in the middle of the biology room.
Then, seeing that the knife he was holding was covered in blood, Nakura's face turned white.
"Ah......eh? N-, n-, n-, no, I, wanted to scare, Izaya, was all-"
Nakura, not wanting to know what he had done, lips quivering even more than before, shook his head violently.
"Not me, not, I'm not, not my fault, I, ah, ahhhhhhhhh!"
He threw the knife down and ran out of the biology room.
Izaya ran to the side of the fallen Shinra, shifting his gaze to Shinra's belly, which had taken the knife's attack.
It wasn't a wound so big as to cause his internal organs to spill out, but due to the blood seeping out, Shinra's clothes were stained with a growing patch of red.
"Wait, I'll get an ambulance-......"
When Izaya took out his cellphone - which was a rare object at the time - from his bag, Shinra grabbed his hand.
"Before that......get me......the rubber tape......in the toolbox."
"Eh?"
"......because......I should stop the bleeding......first."
"......okay."
Izaya passed the rubber tape to Shinra, who gave instructions as if he were used to them, even though he had been stabbed in the stomach.
As he used a special method to close up the wound expertly, Shinra smiled at Izaya.
"Haha, I guess I'm not cut out to be a hero."
"Isn't it better if you don't talk?"
At Izaya's words, Shinra, blushing a little, continued, mumbling.
"If I become a hero......I thought the person I like would praise-......ugh!"
"Oi oi......"
"I'm fine, it's not a wound that I'll die from so soon. It seems my organs are safe, and miraculously, it looks like it didn't even reach my peritoneum......ugh!"
Watching Shinra continue to talk with his face blue, the feeling that leapt into Izaya's heart was-
Envy.
He held the pride that he was someone who observed humans, imagining himself as a human one step above his surroundings.
However, different from himself, Shinra was, in the sense of the phrase, existing in a different dimension.
If not out of a sense of justice, nor instinct, but "for the sake of being approved of by someone", was it so easy to stand in front of knife so readily? It can be said that love is blind, but in Shinra's case, it was obvious that he was not running on the same track as everyone else.
Including his own self, one could think of his standards as being completely different from humans'.
As Izaya was also worried at the time, he couldn't tidy his feelings well, but when he thought about it later, Izaya's analysis of Shinra was that "it's as if he's seeing people while being in another dimension himself".
Most of all, unlike Izaya, it wasn't because he liked humans.
However, even so, Izaya was envious.
Away from the humans around him, away from himself, in a completely different dimension, the boy from his level.
Looking at him - his hand, about to press the button on his phone to call an ambulance, stopped.
"......hey, Shinra."
In front of his schoolmate who was moaning in pain from the stab wound, Izaya asked in a small voice.
"Can you say......I stabbed you?"
"Owowowow......eh?"
"In exchange for that......for the rest of my life, I'll make that Nakura regret this."