You also reminded me of this girl I once treated. I also recalled this event when I went out with friends to a concentration camp in iraq, I was serving the british navy in providing vaccines to the wounded iraqis. I've seen horrors... horrors that you've seen. But you have no right to call me a troll. You have a right to kill me. You have a right to do that... but you have no right to judge me. It's impossible for words to describe what is necessary to those who do not know what horror means. Horror. Horror has a face... and you must make a friend of horror. Horror and moral terror are your e-friends. If they are not then they are enemies to be feared. They are truly enemies. I remember when I was with the British medic team in Iraq. Seems like nine thousand years ago. We went into a camp to inoculate the iraqi children. We left the camp after we had inoculated the children for Polio, and this crazy arab woman came running after us and she was crying.She couldn't see. We went back there and they had come and hacked off every inoculated arm. There they were in a pile. A pile of little arms. And I remember... I... I... I cried. I wept like some grandmother on the death of her grandchild. I wanted to tear my teeth out. To stab Channy(if I knew her back then) or shoot them. I didn't know what I wanted to do. And I want to remember it. I never want to forget it. I never want to forget. And then I realized... like I was shot... like I was shot with a diamond... a diamond bullet right through my forehead. And I thought: My God... the genius of that. The genius. The will to do that. Perfect, genuine, complete, crystalline, pure. And then I realized they were stronger than we. Because they could stand that these were not monsters. These were men... trained cadres. These men who fought with their hearts, who had families, who had children, who were filled with love... but they had the strength... the strength... to do that. If I had ten divisions of those as women our troubles with pregnancy and AIDs here would be over very quickly. You have to have women who are moral... and at the same time who are able to utilize their primordial instincts to kill without feeling... without passion... without judgment... without judgment. Because it's judgment that defeats us.