Sounds like I'm a bit late, but am I missing something(s) here? (likely). You are 21, according to your age thingy. Is it your own phone, computer, etc that your parents may be taking away? That just isn't right. If being gay is an issue to your parents, sounds like you must be living in some medieval-minded part of the planet. With your anxiety issues, is it possible to seek professional help if you haven't already? Professional, as in not someone with medieval-minded ideologies, but with a scientific background. There is no shame seeking help (but from the sounds of it, not from your parents). Sounds like there may be some financial issues that may be preventing you from doing things your own way. Where I live, I can get such help for free. Surely there is some sort of program to help you out where you live. Anyways, hope things work out.