I could make an incredibly long post in response to this (I was in the middle of doing so, in fact, before I took a half step back). Instead, I'm going to make this short, sweet, and to the point, on top of entirely devoid of emotion and full of fact.
Upon making your apology thread, you undercut the tone of seeking forgiveness from the community by being rude when I decided not to simply pat you on the back and tell you it was okay, as most of the other people in the thread have done. I believe that people should own their mistakes - myself included - and accept the consequences of their actions. I also believe they shouldn't try to rationalize their bad behavior, or excuse it by way of mitigating circumstances (just got fired from job, sick, etc). I left my post at "I can't condone this" - very short and succinct, and not even requiring a reply. Though, to be fair, it was not necessary for me to reply to your response, either.
We come then to this thread, where at time of posting, your signature contained an image of someone sticking a shotgun in their mouth and attempting to pull the trigger with their toes. Given the recent situation (and how a lot of people here have issues with that sort of thing in their own lives, myself included), I'm sure you can see how this would make people uneasy, right?
This begs the question of why you could not have simply PM'd a mod (Yop, let's say) about this, or put it in the private feedback forum when having this issue, instead of calling attention to said imagery by publicly posting a thread with a title that would naturally draw the reader's eye to your signature.
Then, in this thread, you continue to unnecessarily insult several members (I'm seeing Pixel and of all people, Alex Strife). I haven't even said anything until now, so why is my name being brought up?
Now, I'm going to level with you. I think you are incredibly lucky to have not been outright banned for your behavior. I'm not sure if it's explicitly stated in the rules, but I feel like the "what happens at X" rule might? cover calls for outright doxxing, and the obvious flaming would have certainly justified a weeklong ban at the bare minimum. I believe you are lucky to still be a member of this community in any capacity, and what you're doing now is simply burning bridges that you intended to keep up (otherwise, you wouldn't have felt the need to publicly apologize, right?).
I understand that you're going through a very intense time, physically and emotionally, but you're getting out of control.
And to end my post (that was actually longer than intended), you don't need to apologize. You've yet to emasculate me or hurt my feelings.