Okay please stop trying to get us all to feel bad for you. We feel bad for you, okay? We all do, and we're all trying to help. I don't know what else we can do but will you please listen to us when we tell you to talk to someone?
I really don't have a lot of respect for people who say they're going to suicide just for attention and you've done it a few times before. You really need to stop doing that because after a while, nobody is going to listen to you when you really do need help and it's not just losing a fight on an internet forum that's upsetting you.
So, take a break, get some help and get back to us, okay?
Posts like this are really uncalled for, man.
It's antagonistic. The poor girl already feels like shit all the time, based on what I've seen. Do you really think making her feel bad about this is the best idea?
Yes, she should try and get some help - talk to a therapist, at the very least - but telling someone who has suicidal tendencies (which we can all agree that she does) that you don't have respect for them and that no one is going to listen to them in future and MOST ESPECIALLY telling them how they feel? All of those things are giant therapeutic no-nos...especially given where and how this all started, and over
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Please don't push the poor girl any further down that path than she's already finding herself, okay?
OP: as you can see, a goodly number of people are willing to try and help you, even if it's something as small as listening. I think you're a bit too hard on yourself, and that you should really try seeing a psychiatrist. A lot of the time it helps to talk to someone who doesn't know you at all about your problems (since they have no reason to judge you one way or another), and something to ease your depression and anxiety would be a great start.
I hope you manage to find the strength to turn things around.