I have yet to feel bad about killing any humans. Am I supposed to? I do feel a bit bad for killing the dogs. They make really awful whimpering sounds and it's not nice. Not sure what this means with regards to "ludonarrative dissonance" yet, but I suppose more concrete thoughts on that will come later. I'll say it's designed to be very unpleasant, but it's not a game breaking level of unpleasant for me. I understand how others could feel that it is, though.
The juxtaposition of present-day Ellie vs the kid we are reminded of in the flashback is emphasizing the weight of this developing tragedy. I think the violence isn't really pointing me towards feeling guilty myself, but I am buying the character progression of Ellie turning into a monster. That's making me feel for her, so I suppose that's what the violence is more in service towards? I guess there's a sort of disconnect from me as a "spectator" to the story, and the separation between me "playing/self inserting" as Ellie, and Ellie herself. I feel like there are three things going on, and I'm leaning towards feeling more like an audience for the most part, even when I am doing the playing. Or maybe we are both complete psychopaths, because the killing does spark a sort of feral joy
Anyway, Jesse has now joined the party. Jesse seems like a nice enough dude, but this revelation is kinda underwhelming. I still have apprehensions about the baby mama drama. The way the level led up to this reveal was very well-delivered though, despite whatever lukewarm feelings I have for the character. Once again, I think I could have used some more time in Jackson to really get to care about this guy some more, cuz right now I'm just like... Jessie? Alright... /shrug
There's another flashback here. It feels a bit oddly placed. This sniping tutorial with Tommy feels like it should have come at the beginning. Even though Tommy is from the first game, his relationship with Ellie is essentially new. Thus, like Jesse, I would've liked to see their relationship before this to justify their presence in the story a bit more. Gonna reiterate that a lot of this feels like it would've been time better spent at Jackson at the start.
We do get a lot of Joel being a cute dorky dad. Shimmer makes a reappearance, just when I was forgetting about how unbothered Ellie was about her dying. This playable section with Joel as the companion feels like a nice reprieve from the miserable direction the story is taking. The Bloater fight made me shit my pants because I thought I had a game over but it was actually the end of the fight. Dunno if its just how it played out for me, but the seemless transition made it a really good scare.
I'm kind of in two minds of this strange flashbacking, because the shift for this one was more jarring than the last. On the other hand, it is providing some pay off for stuff we saw during the opening. Hmm.
I lolled at it being called "Route 5." I'm not gonna say anything more, if you know you know
Ellie is now almost completely demented. She's becoming increasingly non-verbal, so a lot of emotions I *think* she's feeling are tiny nuances in facial expression that I'm reading into. Ashley and the animators/modelers really put work into her, and it shows.
Omg the game broke a mutual understanding by having someone attack me while I was upgrading my weapon
fuck you game, you got me.
Stalkers are fucking terrifying. I'm starting to feel more tense in combat in general. I dunno if it's just me, but it seems as if the game is subtly encouraging me to play more desperate and brutish as Ellie is becoming more deranged? These religious weirdos are scarier than the other human enemies too and I dont like their freaky whistling
This whole thing with Nora was... dark
I'm feeling a lot of for Ellie right now. I'm saddened, I sympathize, and I'm sickened. Our baby girl has become a monster.
I've been generally okay with the flashbacks so far, but the one that happens at the end of this chapter is the first one I feel is in need of a serious re-write. Ellie's return to the Firefly hospital breaks a lot of my suspension of disbelief. I've been able to accept a lot of the fast travel/time skip stuff, because the story had an intention with its pacing. Plus, Jackson is doing well, so I can fill in the gaps thinking they'd be pretty well equipped on any expedition. The main problem I have with this scene is that I don't think this confrontation
needed to happen at this location. It would have made more sense if perhaps Ellie threatened to go there, rather than hastily taking off in the dead of night.
Also, the Firefly Hospital is a very important place in the narrative. If we want a scene of Ellie going back there, I think it needs to be separated from the argument, and given better treatment. The pay off would have been more poignant if this area was fully explorable, perhaps even a reused map from the first game. The plot could easily be retweeked to have Tommy/Ellie/Dina head there first, before finding evidence of needing to head to Seattle.
The way I imagine it in my fantasy version of the game where you don't have a timeskip from Jackson to Seattle:
- have Ellie in the place where Joel committed the act that ruined their relationship (also the birthplace of this revenge cycle).
- the grief of his death turns to rage as she finds information about this WLF group in Seattle, and the girl named Abby
- this rage cements her resolve to this revenge plot (essentially committing to do the same thing Joel did for her).
Thematically, I think it would serve the story so much better, and flesh out the internal journey of Ellie-Abby-Joel more concretely. That's just spit-balling ideas to be constructive though! I feel like the story is very "destination" focused, and often at the expense of the the journey portion. It sucks because I actually quite like the way the story beats are hitting in a broad sense. There are things that could be done to make them land more strongly.
Finale of Day 2: Jesse continues to be completely uninteresting, even though he is a very nice person. Niceness is also the flimsiest reason to go chasing a pair of murderous lesbians across several states
I almost warmed up to him when he was about to give Ellie her intervention moment (maybe he came to be the voice of reason and try to stop this madness??) but then he... backs out and goes along with whatever Ellie says. The pregnancy plot is just not doing anything for me. I get they're trying to make the relationship between the three ~non toxic~ but this is all feeling a little hamfisted.