Things that piss you off

[Ⓐaron]

I'm so sorry you have to deal with shit like that. You deserve better.

 

[Kobato]

Nobody likes me here. I'm lame and I suck....


Guess should leave....

 

[Ⓐaron]

Nobody likes me here. I'm lame and I suck....


Guess should leave....

not true

 

[Joker]

winter just text me if kimble needs to choke a bitch

 

[Hisako]

I don't know who but someone just destroyed our mailbox with what sounded like explosives



what the fuck is going on

 

[CK]

Some assholes poured petrol in our cardboard bin at work and lit it on fire. Almost burnt the fucking store down.

 

[Madame Mayor]

That house hippos don't exist.

 

[Cthulhu]

That amazon only takes credit cards. Fuckers.

 

[Tifabelle]

^how do you want to pay?

Amazon (US) can hook up to a bank account to iirc.

 

[Ⓐaron]

I slept less than six hours and once again it's almost entirely TV Tropes' fault. I should really have learned by now not to visit that website before bed. >:C

 

[looneymoon]

Spoiler: bawwww

I had a terrible night.

I don't usually go out to party but whenever I do it's kind of a nerve wracking experience. Especially since the people I was going with I haven't seen in months. That coupled with the fact that half the people going I didn't know. I am really bad with meeting new people, I was fretting over it as soon as I knew I was invited.

It wasn't so bad because at least there would be SOME people I knew there, and it would have been nice seeing them after a few months. I call them while I was on my way and they tell me how to get there etc. and it's fine. As soon as I get there though they just UP AND LEAVE. Now of course my friend (whose birthday it is) was upset for obvious reasons. But I was kind of pissed too because why the FUCK would you leave when you knew I was 15 minutes away? You'd just let me come into a weird pub I've never been to and let me wait there ALONE when you KNOW I DON'T SOCIALIZE WELL AND GET REALLY NERVOUS WHEN THERE'S LOTS OF PEOPLE. I felt a little better later when I was drunk enough to not care about sending them bitchy passive-agressive text messages but now I feel really bad and I just regret it.

I was at least lucky enough to run into the half of the party I didn't know. Then later an old high school friend showed up so I was able to hang out with her for the night. I was never that close to her so it was still kind of weird. The birthday girl was crying and I was feeling guilty for feeling so anxious and pathetic. Me and my HS friend left the bar for a while so she could have a smoke (bday girl was hanging out with her work friends, but I still felt too guilty to leave altogether). By this time we're both kinda buzzed, but not drunk. She then decides to come out to me. Upon hearing this I too open up to her about my dumb tldr boo hoo no1curr life problems. Then I just start sobbing and I couldn't stop. She offers me a smoke and I take it even though I hate smoking and I think it's a gross habit. I was feeling so stressed out. The cigs just make me cry harder. It doesn't help that my friend is just affirming a bunch of stuff I was insecure about but was too afraid to vocalize. Some homeless lady tries to comfort me as I cry. She was pretty nice but I got kind of scared when some dude offers us heroin so we go back inside the bar.

Go back inside. More high school friends show up. These girls I used to be pretty close with show, I haven't seen them in a couple of years. It would've been nice to see them had they actually said hi to me? I mean they were talking to everyone else around me but not me and it made me feel REALLY shitty since we've known eachother since elementary. I guess six years of friendship doesn't really mean anything to people idk? It's not like I ever did anything to these people to make them ignore me so blatantly.

When it's time to go home I decide to sleep over at birthday girl's house because she's still pretty upset. That and I don't wanna walk home alone at night. Even though I wanted nothing more than to just leave. I was feeling so shitty. I get there and I fall asleep for maybe 2 hours. Wake up still kind of drunk. I freak out because I forgot where I was and start sobbing again. Luckily my sister texts me shortly after. By this time it's light enough for me to run to the bus stop where she picked me up.

I just feel like the people I consider my closest/oldest friends don't really give a shit about me anymore? It's probably my own fault since I'm such a social recluse. My two best friends from work are in Toronto right now and a part of me can't wait for them to get back, but then the other part of me just wants to cut myself off and never talk to anyone ever.

Oh right I sent the person I like a sad pathetic text message about how sad and pathetic I am. The whole situation with this person is just fucked and I feel so emotionally mangled when it comes to it. Ngl it was the main source of tears when I was sitting outside the pub.

TLDR BOOHOO RISHI IS SAD AND KIND OF HATES THE WORLD RIGHT NOW

 

[Max Payne]

Spoiler: bawwww

I had a terrible night.

I don't usually go out to party but whenever I do it's kind of a nerve wracking experience. Especially since the people I was going with I haven't seen in months. That coupled with the fact that half the people going I didn't know. I am really bad with meeting new people, I was fretting over it as soon as I knew I was invited.

It wasn't so bad because at least there would be SOME people I knew there, and it would have been nice seeing them after a few months. I call them while I was on my way and they tell me how to get there etc. and it's fine. As soon as I get there though they just UP AND LEAVE. Now of course my friend (whose birthday it is) was upset for obvious reasons. But I was kind of pissed too because why the FUCK would you leave when you knew I was 15 minutes away? You'd just let me come into a weird pub I've never been to and let me wait there ALONE when you KNOW I DON'T SOCIALIZE WELL AND GET REALLY NERVOUS WHEN THERE'S LOTS OF PEOPLE. I felt a little better later when I was drunk enough to not care about sending them bitchy passive-agressive text messages but now I feel really bad and I just regret it.

I was at least lucky enough to run into the half of the party I didn't know. Then later an old high school friend showed up so I was able to hang out with her for the night. I was never that close to her so it was still kind of weird. The birthday girl was crying and I was feeling guilty for feeling so anxious and pathetic. Me and my HS friend left the bar for a while so she could have a smoke (bday girl was hanging out with her work friends, but I still felt too guilty to leave altogether). By this time we're both kinda buzzed, but not drunk. She then decides to come out to me. Upon hearing this I too open up to her about my dumb tldr boo hoo no1curr life problems. Then I just start sobbing and I couldn't stop. She offers me a smoke and I take it even though I hate smoking and I think it's a gross habit. I was feeling so stressed out. The cigs just make me cry harder. It doesn't help that my friend is just affirming a bunch of stuff I was insecure about but was too afraid to vocalize. Some homeless lady tries to comfort me as I cry. She was pretty nice but I got kind of scared when some dude offers us heroin so we go back inside the bar.

Go back inside. More high school friends show up. These girls I used to be pretty close with show, I haven't seen them in a couple of years. It would've been nice to see them had they actually said hi to me? I mean they were talking to everyone else around me but not me and it made me feel REALLY shitty since we've known eachother since elementary. I guess six years of friendship doesn't really mean anything to people idk? It's not like I ever did anything to these people to make them ignore me so blatantly.

When it's time to go home I decide to sleep over at birthday girl's house because she's still pretty upset. That and I don't wanna walk home alone at night. Even though I wanted nothing more than to just leave. I was feeling so shitty. I get there and I fall asleep for maybe 2 hours. Wake up still kind of drunk. I freak out because I forgot where I was and start sobbing again. Luckily my sister texts me shortly after. By this time it's light enough for me to run to the bus stop where she picked me up.

I just feel like the people I consider my closest/oldest friends don't really give a shit about me anymore? It's probably my own fault since I'm such a social recluse. My two best friends from work are in Toronto right now and a part of me can't wait for them to get back, but then the other part of me just wants to cut myself off and never talk to anyone ever.

Oh right I sent the person I like a sad pathetic text message about how sad and pathetic I am. The whole situation with this person is just fucked and I feel so emotionally mangled when it comes to it. Ngl it was the main source of tears when I was sitting outside the pub.

TLDR BOOHOO RISHI IS SAD AND KIND OF HATES THE WORLD RIGHT NOW

aww that's not so bad

 

[Cthulhu]

^how do you want to pay?

Amazon (US) can hook up to a bank account to iirc.

Not from abroad, :/. Wire transfers, Paypal, national online payment methods, none of that fancy, modern, safe (except for paypal) stuff.

I should probably ask the job to order it, they should have credit cards. Fuck, they might even want to pay for it, . They already pay for any book I want.

 

[Vivi]

this whole thing makes me sick to my stomach

but i can't stop reading it :/

THAT'S what I have to look forward to?

 

[Marle]

Being sick. Again. With a sore throat. Again. Within two weeks.

Hate that the coughing prefers to bother me in the wee AM hours. CANNOT SLEEP EVEN WITH HELP OF MEDICATION.

COLD, GO AWAY. COUGH, ROT IN HELL. LEAVE ME ALOOOONE T.T I'm so tired....

 

[Ⓐaron]

• I had to leave work early because I had spent about half of my shift thus far in the bathroom with a stomach pain that literally felt like someone had gutted my stomach with a knife. (Well, I don't know what that feels like, but it felt roughly like I would imagine that to feel). I am not certain whether this will count as a sick day or not, but if so that will mean I have used all five of my sick days this year already.
• Speaking of the bathroom at work, someone had completely fucking trashed large portions of it. You don't want details so I won't give them to you; I will just say that it was goddamn disgusting.
• I missed Rishi and Belle and probably others on IRC because I felt so crappy that the first thing I did when I got home was go to sleep.
• I'm not sure I even feel well enough to watch the latest Game of Thrones episode, even after several hours of sleep. Fuck's sake. I should probably just go back to bed.
• Monitor has stopped going to sleep for no apparent reason. I should probably just shut my computer off at this point.

 

[Joker]

People whining and bitching.

 

[Max Payne]

People whining and bitching.

speaking of, why did you drop out of the stream so suddenly without saying bye bro

it was weird

 

[Hisako]

People whining and bitching.

this could be misconstrued as some elaborate form of irony

 

[Ghost X]

- Having so many unrelated things to do in a short space of time, and not being paid for it .

 

[Joker]

this could be misconstrued as some elaborate form of irony

Could it, now?

I've now been awake for all of ten minutes, and my glee at managing to wake myself up at the time I'd wanted without having my alarm clock has vanished already, due to one interaction with one person.

Now I'm furious.

 

[Dana Scully]

Fucking videobb and it's fucking time limits on streaming shows

 

[Max Payne]

I wish I could make it through a day without feeling hopeless at some point.

 

[Ⓐaron]

what the fuck, Windows Update; I just updated my computer with 29 new updates last night; how are there already more new updates

 

[Ⓐaron]

dammit, I'm not certain that I feel all that much superior to how I felt before I went into work yesterday >:C