Well, it's mostly a video game, so then I don't really know, I think for some reason because of the personal siginficance and attachtment i have to the franchise and specifically FF7 I will probably shed a few tears re-playing it, especially since more then any of the other games, it really resonated deeply on some emotional level deeper inside to something that no other piece of media or film and music ever really has except for a few other things and it felt so close to being similar somehow to my own inner self. Watching the trailer especially did this to me, I can just tell, I don't know if it's the small age when I first played it or what it was exactly, but it's one of my favourite memories. These days now I spend more time on music but I hope, I'm not really sure, I'm not sure what I hope for to be honest. I hope it's a pleasant surprise.
I guess in some ways I just hope personally with myself that I can somehow re-experience and am able to clearly enjoy the game itself and can reach that point inwardly when I was a child and again as a teenager. I'm trying to gain that inner-purity back and regain or recover some aspects of myself that I may have lost, or had become destroyed or simply neglected and forgotten about...I just want to regain some feelings and way or experience of looking at the world, if it's possible. I want to so badly, maybe this will act as some mediator, or gateway that allows this part of personal healing or facilitate this personal journey to reminiscence from my past and hopefully onward to the future.
I remember the parts that resonated with me the most, particularly the trains, I'm not sure why. I know there's some emphasis them due to the context they have within history but I always wondered if there's some other significance to them as I felt particularly moved by the scenes involving them as well.
(sorry) there's no damn edit button.
There's a few musicians that moved me, but all in different ways. Like Final Fantasy X moved me a lot as well, it's comparable to 7 and 8, but I don't know 8 moved me in a different way. I don't know what it is, only Final Fantasy was really able to do that, and then, I think I'm not good or 'pure' enough for the franchise anymore though and I wonder about that.
It's just I feel this desperate urge to reconnect or somehow gain those feelings back. There's things like, our nervous systems and all kinds of things which effect how we feel, but it's just desperate, like this is my life and somehow that really has precious value for me, to really appreciate or properly make sure I'm appreciating this world at it's best.
(sorry) I went overboard again...it's just
I just want to...
so badly....