Well okay, it's largely all about Haurchefant
I'm not okay with him dying. Not one bit. ;-; Because I love Haurchefant. I feel like he's a true friend.
I thought he was a dork at first and even misread my character's expression at one point when chatting with him before HW even started (he was talking and walked behind her and she gives this 'oh no' or whatever expression, like she didn't want him so close?? IDKbut it gave me the wrong impression like she thought he was really crushing on her and didn't like it... >__>) But except for that one scene with my character's odd expression, Haurchefant slowly became... well, someone to rely on.
I always figured he was a genuine good guy. He just kinda gave that vibe and proved it as things got worse and worse for the Scions. The end of 2.x and the beginning of HW was amazing, and I absolutely loved how the Warrior of Light and Alphinaud go to Haurchefant in basically their darkest hour. And what does he do, he somehow keeps a smile and this warm glow when he's talking to them both and offers to use that very spot as their new base of operations (the Falling Snows awww).
And y'know when ya'll were talking about shipping your characters a while back, well I subtly started shipping mine with Haurchefant during and after those cutscenes. Was half-tempted to write a little something about it.
So like. Haurchefant is that trusted companion. He's reliable and loyal, he somehow finds a way to cheer you up when you're feeling like shit. He's the Warrior of Light's bro. I feel like he had a thing for my character almost the entire time, even though he fully looks to her as a dear friend. They had a bond that developed, at first it was more from him and his insistence (my WoL is usually more subtle and doesn't dive into friendships... and neither do I XD) but there was nothing I could do to stop from just thinking of Haurchefant as my bro.
And now he's dead.
I'm going to sound mean here but I think I would've preferred for Nanamo to remain dead and Haurchefant to live more than the other way around (I really like Nanamo though and am happy she's alive, but I liked the darker aspect/idea of her having been killed that night instead, right in front of the WoL).
But idk Haurchefant's death suited him. Protecting his arguably closest friend from dying in the way he ends up dying.
I'm feeling sad about it all.
I really loved his character. Now my WoL is all feeling vengeful and is gonna pay back the bastards that did it. >___>
And, as a last thing: His death was, sadly, not a surprise to me. I was actually spoiled by it a week or so ago. I got a group together from the Cerberus Discord to do a dungeon with me for my first time (it was later at night). They agreed and were really awesome, helped me out patiently even though my internet was shitty and disconnected me four times from the dungeon.
Anyhow I hung with them the next day for some PotD stuff, and before we started, went afk for a few minutes. Came back, and staring at me in the chatbox was one of them saying something like 'omg I just saw Haurchefant (a character that looked like him), he's back from the dead"
>___>
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I don't like spoiling myself. I said something in the chatbox about "uhh please watch spoilers guys, I've only been to blah blah" Like hello you guys just helped me do a dungeon for the first time last night and this shit hasn't happened.
I guess that's what I get for playing with people I don't know extremely well.
But, tl;dr, even though it wasn't a surprise... that doesn't make it any less sad.
Haurchefant </3