You have reminded me what time of the year it is and how much I dread and loathe the holidays
Fuck
You're tellin' me, kano. ; - ; I have to work through christmas to pass my probation period. We gotta make up for this shit next year or during summer. Sorry for your sentiments : /
I feel worse everyday. I'm taking my pills, yet I feel like something's missing. I feel lonelier by the second and I hate everything around me which is really weird. I feel like I want to throw up a chair to the first person who use sarcasm or whatever with me. I'm...indifferent. And it scares me like hell.
On my way from College I was thinking about the tons of celebrations that will be held soon: Christmas, Thanksgiving, Halloween... this will be my first year without my grandfather in them. I am just not ready to see these celebrations without him....
Elsie, you take my advise, the pills are a double edged sword if you ask me. I know they're supposed to help you but I think you can wade through your life without playing marbles with the pills. It must be your frustrations with somethings or repressed anger that's causing all this.
I may not be the right person to say this, but I believe that your gramps wouldn't want you to be miserable and that you still can feel happy in these occasions. Don't worry though, you're always welcome around here for these occasions.
OT: the fuck uncle, why'd you wake me up so soon?! I had only 5 and half hours of sleep god damn ; - ;