Things that piss you off
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Octo
KULT OF KERMITU
- AKA
- Octo, Octorawk, Clarky Cat, Kissmammal2000
I give a fuck in spirit, for what its worth. In fact I'm kinda jealous and I don't even know what the job is
On topic: I'm just in one of those nonspecific fugs right now, and I'm really tempted to just eat a load of junk to cheer myself up but I know that would be counter productive
Octo
KULT OF KERMITU
- AKA
- Octo, Octorawk, Clarky Cat, Kissmammal2000
I havent got any junk food either, but I can start coveting the blandest of foods when I'm in this mood, like I might just go and eat a shitload of toast or something.
The job sounds awesome. I know fuck all about gardening but just the idea of being outside and getting all soily. It just seems so wholesome. I need to get out of this lovely/horrible flat and find somewhere nice with a garden.
The job sounds awesome. I know fuck all about gardening but just the idea of being outside and getting all soily. It just seems so wholesome. I need to get out of this lovely/horrible flat and find somewhere nice with a garden.
Ryushikaze
Deus Admiral Parsimonious, PHD, DDS, MD, JD, OBE
- AKA
- Tim, Ryu
What's the job?
Max Payne
Banned
- AKA
- Leon S. Kennedy,Terry Bogard, The Dark Knight, Dacon, John Marston, Teal'c
looneymoon
they/them
- AKA
- Rishi
So I'm caught at home alone with my mom for the first time in god knows how long and she decides to take this opportunity to go off on me.
For doing nothing. Literally nothing.
I'm almost finished university and she gets mad at me because I don't know what to do after. She starts off casually asking me "so school's almost over, what do you want to do?" I get anxious because I honestly have no answer. I know that if I'm honest, she's just gonna go off on me like she has before, but what else can I say?
"I'm 21 years old and I don't know what to do with my life."
She reacts as I suspected. She asks about continuing school. I've been in school practically all my life without a break, I can't do it anymore. To be perfectly honest, I simply don't care about it. I'm really only finishing my degree out of obligation at this point, because I've put so much time and effort into it. She asks me if I'm stressed. I'm not particularly stressed, no. She tells me to quit my job. I need my job so I can pay for books and tuition, not to mention I need somewhere else to go so being in school doesn't drive me completely and utterly fucking insane.
She just continues to yell at me, telling me I'm being stupid. Asking me if I want to be a waste for the rest of my life. I don't know how to respond to any of this so I just sit there and take it.
I put a fair amount of effort to get into a really good university (20th best ranked in the world iirc which imo is pretty impressive) and as soon as I got there it was just like... okay. This is it. She doesn't understand why I'm so apathetic or how I just. Don't. Care. She just assumes I'm stressed, or that my friends are having a bad influence on me. No, it's really just because the prospect of more school after I'm done doesn't sound particularly fulfilling is all.
Ever since my cousin (who is my age) started studying for law school, she's been constantly pestering me to study law. Before that she said go get a phD, become a doctor. It drives me up the wall because I know she's only saying it for her own fucking prestige rather than what I want to do.
Not that it matters. My grades aren't good enough to do any of these things. It's an inevitable symptom of apathy.
Sometimes I feel as though she feels as if the world owes her something. Particularly, I feel as though she thinks I owe her. My mom's a strong woman, but life has definitely not treated her well. I know it's hard being married off at a young age, sent off to a strange country and then having to be a single mom raising three kids on your own with no support. At the same time, it's not exactly easy being a kid in that situation either. So then her son leaves her and her other daughter is a complete fuck up and there's me. Somehow I'm supposed to make up for all the shit and it's not possible for one person to do.
Honestly when I look at my future, I just see myself and her. Maybe my sister is there, maybe not. Maybe she chose to fuck up and bugger off to England again, I don't know. When I think of me old, I just think of me taking care of my mom like she's taken care of me for so long. All I can feel at this thought is bitter, angry, sick. Then all I can think of doing with my life is working to get far, far away from here.
I don't tell her this because I know it will hurt her. It hurts me to know I am such an awful person, such an awful daughter for feeling the way I do. So instead I just cut the conversation in the middle of her rant to lock myself in the bathroom and turn the shower on until sufficient time has passed for her to cool down. Then I lock myself in my room and bitch to the internet because I don't really have friends I feel comfortable emoting to. Plus it's just easier talking to people/person since it just feels like nothing because no one has a face on the internet.
end rant.
For doing nothing. Literally nothing.
I'm almost finished university and she gets mad at me because I don't know what to do after. She starts off casually asking me "so school's almost over, what do you want to do?" I get anxious because I honestly have no answer. I know that if I'm honest, she's just gonna go off on me like she has before, but what else can I say?
"I'm 21 years old and I don't know what to do with my life."
She reacts as I suspected. She asks about continuing school. I've been in school practically all my life without a break, I can't do it anymore. To be perfectly honest, I simply don't care about it. I'm really only finishing my degree out of obligation at this point, because I've put so much time and effort into it. She asks me if I'm stressed. I'm not particularly stressed, no. She tells me to quit my job. I need my job so I can pay for books and tuition, not to mention I need somewhere else to go so being in school doesn't drive me completely and utterly fucking insane.
She just continues to yell at me, telling me I'm being stupid. Asking me if I want to be a waste for the rest of my life. I don't know how to respond to any of this so I just sit there and take it.
I put a fair amount of effort to get into a really good university (20th best ranked in the world iirc which imo is pretty impressive) and as soon as I got there it was just like... okay. This is it. She doesn't understand why I'm so apathetic or how I just. Don't. Care. She just assumes I'm stressed, or that my friends are having a bad influence on me. No, it's really just because the prospect of more school after I'm done doesn't sound particularly fulfilling is all.
Ever since my cousin (who is my age) started studying for law school, she's been constantly pestering me to study law. Before that she said go get a phD, become a doctor. It drives me up the wall because I know she's only saying it for her own fucking prestige rather than what I want to do.
Not that it matters. My grades aren't good enough to do any of these things. It's an inevitable symptom of apathy.
Sometimes I feel as though she feels as if the world owes her something. Particularly, I feel as though she thinks I owe her. My mom's a strong woman, but life has definitely not treated her well. I know it's hard being married off at a young age, sent off to a strange country and then having to be a single mom raising three kids on your own with no support. At the same time, it's not exactly easy being a kid in that situation either. So then her son leaves her and her other daughter is a complete fuck up and there's me. Somehow I'm supposed to make up for all the shit and it's not possible for one person to do.
Honestly when I look at my future, I just see myself and her. Maybe my sister is there, maybe not. Maybe she chose to fuck up and bugger off to England again, I don't know. When I think of me old, I just think of me taking care of my mom like she's taken care of me for so long. All I can feel at this thought is bitter, angry, sick. Then all I can think of doing with my life is working to get far, far away from here.
I don't tell her this because I know it will hurt her. It hurts me to know I am such an awful person, such an awful daughter for feeling the way I do. So instead I just cut the conversation in the middle of her rant to lock myself in the bathroom and turn the shower on until sufficient time has passed for her to cool down. Then I lock myself in my room and bitch to the internet because I don't really have friends I feel comfortable emoting to. Plus it's just easier talking to people/person since it just feels like nothing because no one has a face on the internet.
end rant.
Celes Chere
Banned
- AKA
- Noctis
OFC when I am actually tired and want to sleep, I can't fall asleep. ._.
Madame Mayor
Banned
Bought a new comic, the first 3 issues, and then realized the second issue I bought was actually the 2nd issue of another comic with the same title logo just a different series. Blah!
Octo
KULT OF KERMITU
- AKA
- Octo, Octorawk, Clarky Cat, Kissmammal2000
The kitchen looks like this at the moment:
Yeah, ok this is an exaggeration. My kitchen isn't that big
Anyway there is tons of rubbish to bag up and its just annoying and its mainly my fault but IT. JUST. DOESN'T. GET. ANY. EASIER!
Yeah, ok this is an exaggeration. My kitchen isn't that big
Anyway there is tons of rubbish to bag up and its just annoying and its mainly my fault but IT. JUST. DOESN'T. GET. ANY. EASIER!
AvecAloes
Donator
The kitchen looks like this at the moment:
Yeah, ok this is an exaggeration. My kitchen isn't that big
I understand that feeling. I just cleaned the kitchen yesterday, but the living room....if I just stare at the computer screen, I can't see the mess, so it's not there, right?
Mage
She/They
- AKA
- Mage
@ Octo: When you're done, come do my kitchen. It's in a similar state.
Today I feel like I've accomplished nothing. Which isn't accurate at all. I can be remarkably productive in a dressing gown. No client interaction face to face means I can be a slut for one day.
Also Susan Boyle has another CD out, which means crappy cover versions all over Xmas. Fuckety fuck.
Today I feel like I've accomplished nothing. Which isn't accurate at all. I can be remarkably productive in a dressing gown. No client interaction face to face means I can be a slut for one day.
Also Susan Boyle has another CD out, which means crappy cover versions all over Xmas. Fuckety fuck.
Octo
KULT OF KERMITU
- AKA
- Octo, Octorawk, Clarky Cat, Kissmammal2000
I bagged up all the rubbish now. Two whole bags. Where does it all come from? There is only two of us!
So now I am pissed off at unecessary packaging. I think there should be strict laws about what kind of packaging companies use because so many of them just go over the top with it. Its one thing trying to get people to recycle but meet us half way for fucks sake.
We don't recycle at the moment because neither of us drive and the nearest recycling place is too far to go on foot through town lugging a load of rubbish (I'm waiting until I'm 60 to become a crazy bag lady thanks) On top of that, the downstairs binstore doesn't have separate bins for everything so it would be futile.
I'm not even sure recycling is going to work if left up to individuals, I think companies need to take responsibility and reduce packaging and all the other shit they do to the environment. God its discouraging to spend half an hour rinsing out bottles and then see something like
I'm really sounding like a tree hugging moon maiden today aren't I?
@Mage: Nope
So now I am pissed off at unecessary packaging. I think there should be strict laws about what kind of packaging companies use because so many of them just go over the top with it. Its one thing trying to get people to recycle but meet us half way for fucks sake.
We don't recycle at the moment because neither of us drive and the nearest recycling place is too far to go on foot through town lugging a load of rubbish (I'm waiting until I'm 60 to become a crazy bag lady thanks) On top of that, the downstairs binstore doesn't have separate bins for everything so it would be futile.
I'm not even sure recycling is going to work if left up to individuals, I think companies need to take responsibility and reduce packaging and all the other shit they do to the environment. God its discouraging to spend half an hour rinsing out bottles and then see something like
I'm really sounding like a tree hugging moon maiden today aren't I?
@Mage: Nope
Lumina
a pokémon.
- AKA
- Bayleef, Jessica
I am to fucking kill my friend. If it wasn't my fault too I swear i would go commando on him.
He lost... No he has my dormat disks sooo safe that he can't find them. I can't work on my PC like this, and I don't have a phone so I can't actually call him to pick her up.
My best friend, who's like my sister, has the same computer. Sue said she had to check it out and see if she has hers. I'm crossing fingers that she finds it! Otherwise I eill toss the lap on my friend's head.
He lost... No he has my dormat disks sooo safe that he can't find them. I can't work on my PC like this, and I don't have a phone so I can't actually call him to pick her up.
My best friend, who's like my sister, has the same computer. Sue said she had to check it out and see if she has hers. I'm crossing fingers that she finds it! Otherwise I eill toss the lap on my friend's head.
Madame Mayor
Banned
I've been a bit jumpy at work just because of stress.
Today I accidentally knocked over some cords and shut off the music for a little bit and threw out a co-workers tea thinking it was one I had left around. In both cases obviously no one was mad at me or mean to me but it just makes you feel bad, you know? Wanting to make a good impression especially when you're new and you mess up little things.
Today I accidentally knocked over some cords and shut off the music for a little bit and threw out a co-workers tea thinking it was one I had left around. In both cases obviously no one was mad at me or mean to me but it just makes you feel bad, you know? Wanting to make a good impression especially when you're new and you mess up little things.
AvecAloes
Donator
I know how you feel. Definitely been there, done that. Don't let it get to you too much, though!
Marle
Pro Adventurer
- AKA
- Ava, Spike Spiegel, Stella Nox Fleuret, Altair Ibn-La'Ahad, Princess Zelda, Alice, Raven Roth, Faye Valentine, Tifa Lockhart, Khal Drogo
Being forced to deal with the many, many boxes of the lovely, beautiful and shiny golden packages containing Zelda: Skyward Sword.
And not being able to do anything else about it.
Assistant manager making fun of my misery and saying that the Zelda games were all recalled. My reaction was priceless because he died laughing at me.
;O;
EVERYTHING HURTS. EVERYTHING.
And not being able to do anything else about it.
Assistant manager making fun of my misery and saying that the Zelda games were all recalled. My reaction was priceless because he died laughing at me.
;O;
EVERYTHING HURTS. EVERYTHING.
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