Me being a flake. I really wished to help this group out (later today) tomorrow, but I backed out because of what I go into below.
Me being unwell.
Lately I've been having panic attacks that have been substantial - woke up to one a few days ago, having one now.
I'm not sleeping well; for whatever reason I've been feeling the need to fight sleep. Even with my medication. Last night was an online adventure...
I need to take care of myself, and I need to just relax and get a hold of my life. I feel so out of control right now.
Well, try again next time. Hopefully I can use the time now to do some stuff I DO need to do (and not necessarily want to do).
Still, I (feel like I) am being a flake, and I don't like that! I was okay just two days ago with this event; now, due to not being able to find something, as well as genuinely not feeling so great, I'm not okay.
I hope you guys will keep good energies/thoughts/prayers coming my way. Please. I could use some backbone, some health, and a great dose of discipline.
Why oh why did I even make these plans (that I just broke!)???
I just don't understand myself at times.